Last night, I went for a run for the first time in 4 days. I was down by the harbor at sunset (so pretty, as you can see above), listening to Brett Dennen's album "Loverboy" and a lyric in one of the songs hit me at just the right moment:
i don't wanna become someone // who can't live up to what i've already done
After last week's depressing post about my runner burnout, my lack of motivation just kind of got worse. I only ran twice last week for a total of twelve miles. I skipped my long run altogether. I partied too much on the weekend and ate way too many carbs. And listening to that song, I realized that I've come way too far to give up now. Yes, I'm supposed to be in the taper and yes, maybe my body needed rest if I was going through burnout, but whatever the case, training for this marathon has been the most dedicated I've ever been to any endeavor in my life. I have spent almost 3 months training and I can't blow that all now.
So for this week, I'm trying to find motivation in what I've already done. I've accomplished a lot and even though I have to taper off my training now, I still need to give the training I do have my all. And as embarrassing as it is to publicly post below-training plan mileage two weeks in a row, knowing that I do publicly admit my failures as well as all of the successes I've had during this marathon journey is also great motivation for this week.
From now on, anytime I get stuck in a project, I'm definitely going to think of this lyric. It was so simple and yet so hard-hitting for me last night. It's true. Who wants to be someone who can't live up to what they've already accomplished?
- ran 2 days for a total of 12.8 miles
